Everlight

There are times that I get lost in the notion that planet Cobalt never existed here. It is such a strange thought but that isn’t what overwhelms me. It is the truth of the matter that, even if my planet had not been destroyed I would probably never see her again. I miss my home world and the people we lost. I wish I could go back, I wish I could have saved everyone and when I truly consider these things I grow despondent, for you cannot undo what has already been done.

Perhaps that is why I dream of her so often. It is always the same nighttime setting, I am walking her streets, my eyes inspecting the architecture and landscape. The children of Cobalt are all around me enjoying the deep blue glow from our moon reflecting the sun. I’m aware that I shouldn’t be there, that no one should, yet somehow everything seems normal. It is almost like, I know that what I’m experiencing is an echo of some kind but that doesn’t change how I feel.

Then when I look up to admire the moon, I see it begin to crumble, collapsing into itself. The epicenter of where the EverLight comes to collect the balance it had lost. Continuing on it’s path it comes next for my planet. People can be seen flying into the sky followed by buildings, people-movers, and ultimately the ground beneath my feet gives way and hurls itself to where the moon once stood. The panic and horror in people becomes thick like a fog that envelops everything I behold, though my emotional state never wavers from its calm. When it is all said and done I am left there floating in space in the same spot I had once stood, my planet, my people gone. Finally, I wake up laying in my bed eyes opened staring at the ceiling and the disquiet wells up within me.

After all my years of travel, I still have yet to find anything that matches that blue. The color that only lived at night on Cobalt, peoples faces were lighted up with it as they enjoyed a nighttime frolic. Those are the times that are easiest to recall because they were so unique. If ever I were to find a planet with similar evenings I’m not sure how I would react emotionally after having said goodbye so long ago.

It has been more than 5 millennia since she was swallowed up by the EverLight. How were our scientists so wrong after getting so much right? We thought that we were prepared for anything but that simply wasn’t the case. After the Demis were dispersed throughout the multi-verse we sincerely thought that our people would be spared, at least the ones that were willing to leave home. There were people that thought they could survive on Cobalt, that the EverLight would never overtake her, they were doomed from the start. The rest of us truly believed we would have time to found our colonies and wait for our people to follow.

The planet Galt was the first and by far the most successful colony we founded. Others saw success but Galt had the perfect climate for reseeding and took to it like it was Cobalt itself. Our traditions and spiritual beliefs thrive on Galt as does our population. When we first landed there were only 100,000 colonists, now we number in the hundreds of millions. Our people no longer have to worry about extinction. We have many families just now beginning the Path with children making their Ascension.

What would have happened if everything had gone as planned? I often consider how the other colonies would have been better supported by larger populations. How the first 42 would have had to spread their colonists among so many other planets across the Multi-verse. I wonder if Galt would thrive the way it has if we would have been forced to expand our colonizations. Just how many dimensions would we inhabit? Yet the truth remains, billions of my people were lost before our first colony took root.

We knew that mining the EverLight, to create our Demis, was the cause for the initial destabilization. Our scientists worked out the numbers and creating 100 more Demis should have been safe. I saw the math, I know the numbers didn’t lie but we missed something, something big. That much EverLight mined should have allowed everyone to flee Cobalt. By all appearances everyone that wished to survive had a path out of harms way. The planet should have lived on for at least another millennia but it didn’t. Those who embarked on a mission to find worlds suitable for colonization, to have families and to ensure our survival by definition, have succeeded at great sacrifice.

The original plan was to mine just enough EverLight to nurture 100 new Demis and we should have been able to double that number without accelerating planetary collapse. We were tragically wrong and no one has ever figured out what our scientists missed. To dwell on such things now seems beyond reason, I suppose. We no longer mine the EverLight, the Demis that have survived are all we need to traverse the Multi-verse, creating more would be too great a risk. If more Demis are forthcoming it is because the Demis themselves have learned of a way to procreate. We rely on the Demis but they need us too, it has spawned something of a symbiosis. They Ascend as would any people, lately I have found an interesting notion to think of a Demi achieving Reversal.

When I was first Ascending I thought I might never reach Reversal. I walked the Path for hundreds of years growing older and older until I finally saw the way. I’ve been growing younger ever since, though, I have come to realize that Reversal happens at a much slower pace than Ascension. Our technology, coupled with our spiritual abilities have kept my body strong for thousands of years. I know, my time is coming to a close, it now takes so much energy for me to avoid moving into the beyond. I guess it is the Multi-verse’s way of telling me that I’ve learned enough, that my experiences have illuminated everything I needed to discover.

It has been happening for a long time now, the next level trying to swallow me up and take this physical form. For many years I have held the Urging off so that I can help as many of my people as possible to get to the same stage I have achieved. It is difficult to put into words just what all of this means so forgive me if I’m not easy to follow. I realize that you would need to be fairly far along the Path to fully understand.

These days I don’t spend much time at any of our colonies if I don’t have to. After becoming Steward of my Demi, Calydra, I haven’t seen much point in the planetary experience. Being aboard Calydra is where I find my comfort, perhaps because it puts me so close to the EverLight. It calls to me, I am at the point where it takes almost half my energy maintains focus to hold the EverLight back. I have learned so much, too much to stay in these realities for much longer. My final achievement is ahead of me, the thing I have worked so hard to attain is there. The only lesson I have left to absorb is the lesson of Letting Go.